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Post by 4Ms on Mar 15, 2011 12:28:01 GMT -5
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Post by 4Ms on Mar 15, 2011 12:28:28 GMT -5
January 1, 2009 Negative Neil adam-lambert.org/neil-lambert-adam-lamberts-brother/www.bloglovin.com/en/blog/769243/negative-neilwww.myspace.com/adamlambertfans4life/blog/483284882atop.proboards.com/post/19155/thread******************************************************************************************************** LA Day 1
by Neil on Jan.02, 2009
I slept in a tent last night. In LA. It turns out that upon leaving Santa Cruz, that nagging feeling I kept having that I had forgotten something was not for nothing. About an hour into the drive I slapped my forehead, gripped by the realization that my sleeping bag and pillow were sitting safely at home. So I slept in a tent at a friend’s house in her backyard. I should be clear: “tent” connotes some sort of squalor but I would venture to call this a luxury tent. It had electical outlets. Laptop, desk lamp, music, and my favorite: tons of blankets that her cat had seemingly lounged upon all day. So obviously my allergic response was potent. I made it through the night.
Now I’m on my way, to meet Adam at his house. I have no idea where I’ll be sleeping tonight. Maybe I won’t sleep? I don’t know. I think at some point I’m just going to give in and get a hotel room to make my life a lot easier. ____________________________________________________
LA Day 2
by Neil on Jan.02, 2009
I get a ride to Adam’s apartment to find out that we have completely miscommunicated. He is waiting for me at another location. No problem, I think, I’m in an adventurous mood. I’ll just kinda…. walk around Hollywood and wait for him to show up. Adam informs me that there is a public library somewhere in the East. Perfect. So I set out, imagining myself an explorer with walking stick in hand.
During my trek in search of the library I pass a house with a sign out front: “Psychic Readings: Tarot Cards of the Past, Present, and Future”
First off, that’s some poor presentation, Miss Chloe. By your wording I’m thinking you own a Tarot card museum. You should have been able to predict that many of your fellow citizens would be similarly confused. That you didn’t is the first indication that you are a bad psychic. Moreover, the entire house has bars on the windows and doors. Sooo, I’m going to pay you to read my fortune when you can’t even sense premonitions of impending breaking and entry at your home? No, not convinced.
I think of going in, but ultimately choose to save the $15 it will cost to make this post more interesting. I walk on, plodding my way through the urban wilderness in search of my true destination. Along the way I see a Scientology Library across the street. Christ, I hope this isn’t the library Adam had in mind. Again, I briefly entertain the notion of entering the library: “I’m here to research the study of science? I’m pretty sure I’m in the right place.” They’ve probably heard that one before. Maybe I’d say, “My engrams are, like, totally disrupting my destiny. I… I had a very loud birth,” while stifling some unexpected tears. Again, probably been done. Once again I move on in search of my true destination.
I finally find the library and silently rejoice. Of course I go straight for the Science Fiction section. Fahrenheit 451 instantly catches my eye. Hell yes! I’m ashamed to admit to not having read this book until now. Well, dear readers, that will quickly be remedied. I manage to get through one chapter before Adam arrives. It was good. It was really good, in fact, and every time I read something that exudes that level of quality right off the bat I think, “I should write. Not with the intent of contributing anything to the literary world, but because this author so obviously receives such pleasure from arranging words in the way that he does. I’m sure there are untold pleasures that await me if I put a pen to paper, too.”
But then Adam, or anyone else really, appears and my train of thought breaks. Suddenly I find myself riding around in his friend’s car petting her dog, Attila, and the inspiration evaporates. This happens to me quite frequently in many facets of my life: music, writing, pretty much anything creative. I always find myself content to observe, analyze, comment. It’s… hollow. What’s the point of living if you don’t create anything.
And then through some sheer luck or perhaps something more, I recall the quote at the beginning of Fahrenheit:
Don’t think. Thinking is the enemy of creativity. It’s self-conscious, and anything self-conscious is lousy. You can’t try to do things. You simply must do things. - Ray Bradbury
I know it sounds fleeting, but I think there’s a lot to learn from that. I’m going to attempt to live in this fashion more often. ____________________________________________________
Leaving Los Angeles
by Neil on Jan.05, 2009
I can’t recall exactly when the end of my LA trip begins. Adam and I sit around on Saturday brainstorming potential songs he could sing.
It’s funny: when we were kids, Adam annoyed the hell out of me when he sang along to songs on the radio. A song will play and he’ll sing along, oftentimes wildly improvising on what the artist recorded. I guess I always thought of it as a way to show off or compete with the singer to prove he is better than whoever is on the recording. He usually is. But in his apartment, I realize that Adam does this whether anyone is watching or not. Improvising helps him decide how he will sing it when someone is watching. Now I listen to him wail and I smile instead of cringe. I see in that private space the same side of him that I see in myself when I put on my favorite tracks and pluck out some notes along to it on my keyboard, alone in my room. It is for no one’s sake but my own.
We talk about unrequited love and his thoughts on the subject. He says things about his current situation that I said in that very same apartment two years previous.
Sunday is spent waiting for my ride back to Santa Cruz to arrive. I’m supposed to have breakfast with my friend Maggie but we mutually flake on each other. We speak on the phone instead, catching up on the last few months. I’m reminded why we became friends in the first place.
When I was 13, I had a friend who was 24. I did not find this strange. In fact, at the time, she was the only friend I had any genuine fun with. I don’t know if it was because I was an old soul or because she was young at heart, it must be a mixture of both. We drifted apart when I became an angsty teen, though I am happy to say we are friends once more even if it is currently peripheral.
Now she is 34, a mother. I’m 24, some guy. We speak on the phone as if nothing has changed except that my brother may or may not be imminently famous and I may or may not be moving to another country. It is a rare thing to have a friend purely because the two of you have compatible personalities and not because you both work together, or because you are both in college or in the same city.
Sometimes the most important friends are friends with seemingly nothing in common. Sometimes the best brothers are brothers that have nothing in common until you spend a weekend with them. ____________________________________________________
My brother is on American Idol today
by Neil on Jan 20, 2009
My brother Adam is going to be on American Idol Season 8. Perhaps I’m biased, but I think he should win.
It’s already a done deal, really. The rest of them should just go home. A-M-E-R-I-C-A-N I-D-O-L contains the word ‘Adam’ first of all, and unless there’s a guy competing this year named Ericn Iol, I really think that he’s got this thing locked up. Plus, the world greets Obama and Adam on the same day. Coincidence? Not a chance.
I encourage all of you (5 people who read this) to watch at 8pm PST on Fox. It’s gonna to be grand. Feel free to add your comments about his performance to this post so I can ride his coattails to e-fame. I’m a social network climber, big deal. ____________________________________________________
Sayounara Japan
by Neil on Jan.28, 2009
Last night the Embassy of Japan’s website was updated with information about who is scheduled for an interview for the JET program. I am not on the list. Yes, I checked it twice (three times in fact. Once this morning just in case I was dreaming). The myriad of reasons my application was not selected aren’t worth ruminating upon. I’ll never know why I was rejected because they don’t send a letter explaining the decision.
Well, Japan? You think all your applicants know what “ruminate” means? Fuck you.
It’s like Japan broke up with me last night. We were going strong, so I thought. I mean, sure, I hadn’t heard from her in a while but I didn’t sense any tension last time we spoke on the phone. We were going to move in together in August, but I guess that’s what you get for planning too far ahead.
She called last night to say, “Neil. Look, it’s you not me. I’m actually seeing 2,478 other guys right now. I don’t really care that they know how to properly use ‘ruminate’ in a sentence. I don’t even know how to use it in a sentence. Don’t call me, I’ll call you. Actually I won’t. Bye.”
So I shed some tears after realizing the full weight of our breakup. Particularly vexing is the embarassment I’ll have to endure when my friends ask, “How’s Japan doing? When are you moving in with her?” I’ll have to reply that, despite my talking about her all the time, we actually weren’t in a relationship. We went on a date once, that’s it, and I didn’t even get a kiss goodnight. But this whole time I’d been bragging to them about how we slept together.
Surprisingly, the bitterness hasn’t kicked in yet, just the disappointment. I guess I’m still in denial. When it does, though, you’ll know. Now this website has no future purpose which I guess is fitting considering I don’t either.
Now I’m just some college kid (not so) fresh from graduation with no plan, no short-term goal. Don’t worry, dear readers, I’m going to attempt to find a silver lining to all this. Perhaps now I’m better equipped for some serious fraternal coattail riding? I can ride those babies all the way through August, hopefully. I’m free to find a better job now, knowing I won’t be leaving in July.
Whatever that near future happens to be, Japan now has nothing to do with it. What should I do instead? I’m pretty open to suggestions at this point. ____________________________________________________
Seasonal Disorder
by Neil on Apr.10, 2009:
This morning I woke up and everything was gorgeous. After half a week of miserable, rainy weather, I was pleased to see sunlight glinting off of the assorted glass containers strewn across my desk.
It wasn’t just nice weather though, it was incredible weather. Two birds were fucking on my windowsill extolling this particularly glorious Friday. There was a hint of pine in the air.
God himself appeared to me in a sunbeam and said, “Stop masturbating, Neil, and listen to me. I exist, and I want you to walk with me along the beaches of Santa Cruz while I explain the intricacies of the universe to you.”
“Sorry God,” I said. “My boss pays the bills around here, not you, and I unfortunately have to work. Besides, I’m sure the weather will be beautiful over in San Jose.”
30 minutes later I’m half way over the mountains encased in fog. The entire day was a miserable, rainy mess.
Fuck my life. ____________________________________________________
“Take it all in, Neil”
by Neil on Apr.23, 2009
Lately I’ve been getting comments from people on here, via email, and real life and they all say the same thing: “Your life has forever changed because of American Idol. Take it all in, Neil! It’s gonna be a wild ride!”
My first reaction is to roll my eyes. I don’t feel any different, it’s just that my only sibling is a nationwide sensation at the moment. Also, why must I “take it all in”? If my life is changed forever, won’t there be taking-in time later on? Can’t I just take it in gradually instead of all at once? Why spoil it, you know?
Lately, though, I’ve begun to wonder. Perhaps my life has changed. Maybe I just don’t realize it which is why I don’t feel any different. So, today I decided to put this whole “your life has changed” premise to the test:
This morning I woke up for work just like normal. Besides a bit of extra drowsiness, I felt no different. Pulling on my clothes and brushing my teeth felt the same, my slightly disproportionate gut didn’t look any smaller, and my new haircut from last weekend still looked dorky. “It’s all in how you carry yourself, Neil,” I told myself. Nodding my head in agreement, I hopped in the car.
And that’s when it began. Cars seemed to part for me. Pedestrians scrambled over themselves to allow me the right of way. They shook their fists in praise of my awesome lineage. Other cars joined them, honking in agreement: Adam is talented, everyone loves him! You are related to Adam, everyone loves you! It’s simple logic, really, and I was suddenly a bit ashamed of having never though this way before. I eased onto the freeway, admiring all the Normal People going about their mundane lives. They will surely never get the opportunity to sit in the 5th row at a taping of the nation’s most popular television program simply because they followed one of the contestants out of the womb three years later! I could scarcely remember what it was like to live that way. So…. ordinary.
Cop car. Shit. I guess nothing’s changed. OR HAS IT?! I repeated my mantra for the day, that fame and glory are a state of mind. I stopped and the police officer followed suit. He approached my passenger side.
“License and registration, please.”
“Of course, officer,” I said while I shot him a cool and collected smile. He has no idea, of course, that I’ve been taking it all in for the whole morning and I am, naturally, a changed man. I continue to smile. The officer shoots me a quizzical stare while double checking the name on my I.D.
“Are you…?”
I didn’t want him to have to embarass himself. We both knew how that sentence was going to end: “…related to Adam Lambert?” Why not save him the trouble?
“Yes. Yes I am. Is there a problem, officer?” I beamed at him. So this is what it’s like, being indirectly famous. Life is good! Soon this cop would be stumbling over himself in apology. He had no idea who the fuck I was. I decided this time I would be merciful.
After a lengthy and frankly uncomfortable Field Sobriety Test, I realized my mistake. Do not finish police officer’s sentences for them. I can guarantee you that the end of their sentence, 99 times out of 100, is “…drunk?” and not “…Adam Lambert’s brother?”
Lesson learned: you are not cool. If complete strangers on the internet assume that your life is radically changing but you aren’t seeing the effects, that’s because your life is not radically changing. It’s not because you somehow managed to be unobservant over the course of the last few months, it’s because you are still lame. It’s a tough pill to swallow, but I’m glad it happened sooner rather than later. |
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Post by 4Ms on Mar 15, 2011 12:28:45 GMT -5
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Post by 4Ms on Mar 15, 2011 12:29:34 GMT -5
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Post by 4Ms on Mar 15, 2011 12:29:50 GMT -5
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Post by 4Ms on Mar 15, 2011 12:31:22 GMT -5
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